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October 24 to October 30, 2010
I am writing this on almost the First day in December. I have been very ill, can't seem to do much, and so very tired. I am trying to catch-up.
Church was good and right after I had the folks bring me up to the Lodge for the Encampment Degree we were to attempt to put on. I could not memorize my part and I was given "secret work" to do only an hour or less before the degree. And the some 12 people that were to come from the east never showed up and we had to double up parts. I hope the candidates got something out of it. Our member who is a Past Grand Master was so saddened he thought we would not attempt to put on such a degree again in the near future -- that saddened me. Tuesday was a Data Committee Meeting and I am so disillusioned
Wwednesday I found out there was no but up early in the day so Bob Maurice was kind enough to drive me up to the Berkshires to attend a Western Massachusetts Regional Network to end Homelessness meeting. Bob got to bring the left-over food back down to needy people he knows of. We went down to the family home and he looked at it as a builder. He is saying I should just build new. I don't think I can affort that and am very saddened. I want to be home. We stopped over by Alice's house to see if we could help her move the bed up to Pittsfield but she was not around and Idon't think we got to putting a note up. We tried to call here once we got into cell-phone range, but to no availe. Thusday I was at a Health Outreach Workers meeting discussing the needs of the homeless and those who have limited resources at STCC that evening. Friday I was to meet with my counselor aboutCluttering. More and more I am not convinced that I am wrong to keep stuff for a future use. I am believing we need to take the model of Alcoholics Annonymose and creat "Wasters Annonymous" for those so called "normal" people who throw away so many things. I see in the fall lawn chairs that are good, out in the trash. Oukr bulding filles up a large trash barrell for each 7 people or so in the building. There is no need increating that much trash. Once again I am very ill on Saturday.
I think the folding bicycle I got was an expensive bicycle but I have ruined any value it had by scratching it so when I tried to get off of the train tracks. If you click on this link it will tell you a bit about this happening.
Please continue to pray. My back and especially my neck muscles often hurt, but the pain in the hands is decreasing. But after the accident my arms hurt and my neck again. The professionals still say I need hearing aids in both ears. I am happy with the way the 2nd opinion Doctor is proceeding, cautiously and by getting lots of empirical information before a decision is made .I am under MassHealth paying for my MediCare so I have experienced first hand what "ObamaCare" would be like. As I said, it hurts, but then relieving the pain is not a priority when you are not an important person. I was happy NOFA thought they could use me. I can not seem to even volunteer, no one seems to want to use me .
God is healing that spine and I might not need another operation.
I will take buses and hitch hike if need be to get to the family home and start throwing out things out. But in reality, I might not be able to do any of that this fall.
I often feel I have not made the right decisions most of the time. I just does not feel good to think you are a called a worthless nobody by many people and the inference is that can not contribute much at all to life and the "society" is taking care of your minimal needs until you finally hurry up and die. That review of my life is so depressing. It seems that every time I have had an opportunity to make a decision, I have made the wrong one. People seem to say I make the wrong decisions BUT if I do follow their advice, and it turns out wrong, I am still blamed for doing so anyway. When I came back from Grand Lodge I was told that regardless of what some people may think, the Grand Lodge of Massachusetts, I.O.O.F., sees a value in me and I should focus upon that positive expectation. I just do now know what to do. I will be away from Saturday anyway through maybe Tuesday of next week. I am hoping to get my stuff out of Alice's home which she is trying to sell. I am despairing as I don't think I can do that. I seem to be so strangely ill.
My lodge (Springfield # 235, I.O.O.F.) has asked me to be Secretary for another year. So I know what I am doing for the 1st and 3rd Mondays this year.
I think one needs to rely on GOD and test the advice you are given and then go forwards;"full speed ahead"! I would like to attend Grange, but can't get there.
I think back on the Cathedral of the Pines I went with Ray Laborde and his wife Pauline to and the "Steak Roast" I went to at Amherst Lodge at one of their members large back yard in the country. I do like the Independent Order of Odd Fellows and the good works of beneficence that they do..
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The info. below is still sort of ok.
I have made a tri-fold resume like a brochure, my doctor said no work for at lest the next 3-6 months, ouch. It was last year, October 18th, when many donated to the Western Massachusetts Arthritis Foundation Walk. My back hurts, my neck hurts, I just plain hurt. I hope people will donate also again this coming fall.
Soon I am helping in the Relay for Life of the American Cancer Society. We had meetings on it this week on the PTK induction ceremony next week but I did not go.
What follows are the new information about my injuries and the progress from my NeuroSurgeon! I am in great pain and have difficulty doing many things.
I said last before that I would probably take them down from here. Now I will keep them up a little longer so you can see what I am having difficulty in healing from.
Click on the images above to go to links to more information
I was released of the braces on the same day as my accident, but 4 months later! BUT THE ALMOST CONSTANT PAIN IS CHANGING SOME.
And they do not know why the pain came, but was glad it seemed to be going away little by little!!! Now it is back worse than ever. I am scared.
The new medicines are helping the pain in the left had some, but moving it and exercising it seems to be the best thing. I thank God for my current Primary Care Doctor and for the "Second Opinion Surgeon" that said I could ride a bicycle and be more active if I was careful.. But after the July accident I have not done so. I hurt a lot in my shoulders arms.
Thank GOD for any and all improvements. Especially I thank God I can walk and do some things. I am told that because of the vertebra injured, medically, they did not even expect me to walk.
I pray this fall and the coming winter are full of blessings for you and yours.
The telephone number in Springfield is (413) 732-7077 or you can write to me there at 32 Byers Street, Apartment # 101, Springfield, MA 01105-1221.
It looks like I will be there throughout the winter this year.
I feel so much worse in many ways than I did when I was in the Rehab. Hospital.
Often have to rest up all day in order to go to a meeting at night for 2 hours and then I am so tired I am glad to get to bed.
But sleep does not come with the Narcolepsy, so I am up and then back to bed all night long.
I feel so rotten and worthless because I came to Springfield trying to get work and could not do so
and now I have to spend over 20 times the cost of repairs to tear down the family home.
I feel so rotten and worthless and it is no wonder no gal wants to even
be an escort with me to a free meal. Thanks for your prayers.
I feel I have let down God and humanity.
It is no fun feeling that you are