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I am writing this on almost the First day in December. I have been very ill, can't seem to do much, and so very tired. I am tryng to catch-up.
Church did not happen for me today as I had to be at the Arthritis Walk as captain of the 3linkers the Western Mass. I.O.O.F. team and help them set up. I also helped in the "T-shirt" and captian's cap and goodie bag distribution . We were hoping to be installed at Springfield Lodge Monday night butthat had to be putoff until next month. Tuesday I went to the Clarion Hotel for a meeting about helping people with thier finances so thier electricity and other Utilities were not cut off during the winter. I had the opportuninty to speak with some one and tell of my sadness when I paid the bill on time by thousands of dollars worth of frozen food was destroyed at the family home when the electricity was shut off early and I was not there for about 3 weeks (since I thought the bill was paid and all was ok). It was a good meeting and I connected with many others that day. I came back and ound out that the inspector had been here while I was away. I was quite upset.
I did not much Wednesday but Amity Lodge and then back to bed. Thursday I met with the folks at Social Security. Oh how I wish I could get off this SSI stuff because it is just a welfare program. But no one will hire me and I owe the governmnet so much money. They take about a fourth of the $198 I get from social security to live on. I feel so worthless and that I have "frittered" my life away and will soon die knowing I have failed God and man and deserve damnation. Friday and Saturday I tried to rest up for the Encampment Degree Sunday afternoon.
I think the folding bicycle I got was an expensive bicycle but I have ruined any value it had by scratching it so when I tried to get off of the train tracks. If you click on this link it will tell you a bit about this happening.
Please continue to pray. My back and especially my neck muscles often hurt, but the pain in thehands is decreasing. But after the accident myarms hurt and my neck again. The professionals still say I need hearing aids in both ears. I am happy with the way the 2nd opinion Doctor is proceeding, cautiously and by getting lots of empirical information before a decsion is mage.I am under MassHealth paying for my MediCare so I have experienced first hand what "ObamaCare" would be like. As I said, it hurts, but then releaving the pain is not a priority when you are not an important person. I was happy NOFA thought they could use me. I can not seem to even volunteer, no one seems to want to use me .
God is healing that spine and I might not need another operation.
I will take buses and hitch hike if need be to get to the family home and start throwing out things out. But in reality, I might not be able to do any of that this fall.
I often feel I have not made the right decisons most of the time. I just does not feel good to think you are a called a worthless nobody by many people and the inference is that can not contribute much at all to life and the "society" is taking care of your minimal needs until you finally hurry up and die. That review of my life is so depressing. It seems that every time I have had an opportunity to make a decision, I have made the wrong one. People seem to say I make the wrong decsions BUT if I do follow thier advice, and it turns out wrong, I am still blamed for doing so anyway. When I came back from Grand Lodge I was told that regardless of what some people may think, the Grand Lodge of Massachusetts, I.O.O.F., sees a value in me and I should focus upon that positive expectation. I just do now know what to do. I will be away from Saturday anyway through maybe Tuesday of next week. I am hoping to get my stuff out of Alices home which she is trying to sell. I am disparing as I don't think I can do that. I sem to be so strangely ill.
My lodge (Springfield # 235, I.O.O.F.) has asked me to be Secretary for another year. So I know what I am doing for the 1st and 3rd Mondays this year.
I think one needs to rely on GOD and test the advice you are given and then go forwards;"full speed ahead"! I would like to attend Grange, but can't get there.
I think back on the Cathedral of the Pines I went with Ray Laborde and his wife Paulline to and the "Steak Roast" I went to at Amherst Lodge at one of thier members large back yard in the country. I do like the Independent Order of Odd Fellows and the good works of beneficence that they do..
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The info. below is still sort of ok.
I have made a tri-fold resume like a brochure, my doctor said no work for at lest the next 3-6 months, ouch. It was last year, October 18th, when many donated to the Western Massachusetts Arthritis Foundation Walk. My back hurts, my neck hurts, I just plain hurt. I hope people will donate also again this coming fall.
Soon I am helping in the Relay for Life of the American Cancer Society. We had meetings on it this week on the PTK induction ceremony next week but I did not go.
What follows are the new information about my injuries and the progress from my NeuroSurgeon! I am in great pain and have difficulty doing many things.
I said last before that I would probably take them down from here. Now I will keep them up a little longer so you can see what I am having difficulty in healing from.
Click on the images above to go to links to more information
I was released of the braces on the same day as my accident, but 4 months later! BUT THE ALMOST CONSTANT PAIN IS CHANGING SOME.
And they do not know why the pain came, but was glad it seemed to be going away little by little!!! Now it is back worse than ever. I am scared.
The new medicines are helping the pain in the left had some, but moving it and exercising it seems to be the best thing. I thank God for my current Primary Care Doctor and for the "Second Opinion Surgion" that said I could ride a bicyle and be more active if I was careful.. But after the July accident I have not done so. I hurt a lot in my shoulders arms.
Thank GOD for any and all improvements. Especially I thank God I can walk and do some things. I am told that because of the vertebra injured, medically, they did not even expect me to walk.
I pray this fall and the comming winter are full of blessings for you and yours.
The telephone nuber in Springfield is (413) 732-7077 or you can write to me there at 32 Byers Street, Apartment # 101, Springfield, MA 01105-1221.
It looks like I will be there throughout the winter this year.
I feel so much worse in many ways than I did when I was in the Rehab. Hospital.
Oftenhave to rest up all day in order to go to a meeting at night for 2 hours and then I am so tired I am glad to get to bed.
But sleep does not come with the Narcolespy, so I am up and then back to bed all night long.
I feel so rotten and worthless because I came to Springfield tryng to get work and could not do so
and now I have to spend over 20 times the cost of repairs to tear down the family home.
I feel so rotten and worthless and it is no wonder no gal wants to even
be an escort with me to a free meal. Thanks for your prayers.
I feel I have let down God and humanity.
It is no fun feeling that you are