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November 21 to November 27, 2010
I am writing this on almost the First day in December. I have been very ill, can't seem to do much, and so very tired. I am trying to catch-up.
Church I was so terribly tired again. Taken home afterwards and went to bed. Was given a pie and maybe I will give it to someone having a thanksgiving dinner. Or else I will just pig out and eat it myself. I refused some food this week, I had no place in my refrigerator to put it. Monday had a meeting at 7pm which I rested up all day for and then went back to bed afterwards. Tuesday it was the same thing, rest up and then go to the Community Choir rehearsal for our part in the Cancer Choir fund raiser for the American Cancer Society that I think we have done for about 24 years. Wednesday I went to see Dr. McGoverrn and he saw the spots on my buttocks and ordered some anti fungal cream. In the building Home City Housings property manager had convinced tenants to have a "Thanksgiving" meal here and she bought a good deal of the stuff for it. They used the kitchen of the former Resident Manager's apartment. I did not like the idea of eliminating that position without asking ownership. They have done a good job of courting the tenants and now there is no one to watch and see that drug dealing is not happening during the weekdays. Dec. 1 will fall on a Wednesday and I expect to have suspected drug dealers or their henchmen up and down the hallways, and then Tenants will have no money for rent by the end of the week. Home City Housing and Open Door Social Workers do not see anything like this now, but I see where the "wool" is being pulled over their eyes. Maria of Home City Housing, has done all she can (in my pint of view, although I can not collaborate it) to take the money saved by not having our Resident Manager's position "liquidated" and get all sorts of nice benefits for the tenants. Then if Home City Housing does offer a written option to have the ownership of this building taken over by Home City Housing the tenants getting the benefits will not resist. That also means the we will lose an appeal to the board of directors of 32 Byers St., Inc. and in the end the rents could go up and the services and maintenance go down and we will have NO one to seek help from. But most tenants are only thinking about extra parties and meals and such, letting their stomachs and greed guide them instead of their minds. I left to go to the Rescue Mission and talk with Ron Willaby about having a Rescue Mission member on our Board of Directors. I personally think it is the height of idiocy for us to NOT have a member of those agencies that see the homeless and feed and maybe shelter them on the 32 Byers St., Inc. board.
The point is I went there and then did NOT come back for our meal at the building but followed a friend who knew where the ecumenical Thanksgiving service was this year. It was at the old first church building that had been bought out by the city. After that service I did come back and just went right to bed. I absolutely hate eating out at restaurants. I feel so guilty about it all. I have worked in a resort hotel and know what it costs to put on the meal and what is charged. Also I have never felt happy with many meals. I get given food left and right and I do NOT need it most of the time. I think one reason we have cancer is that we eat three times a day and not just when we are hungry. As it was I had some food that Ron insisted I eat at the Rescue Mission and I had some food after the worship service, and I did not have to sit around a table saying how thankful I was to be able to eat with a bunch of people that I really did not want to eat with. I was certain it would be like other times, one person do all the work, or maybe two, and the rest of us not even donate something. I got the donated 12 liters of soda pop for them and none was left for the birthday party. Pam, our member to the board of directors from the tenants, said it was just as I feared, one or two working and only two or three donating anything, and all the rest piging out. Eating what would have been the wages of a Resident Manager that was doing her job, as well if not better than most we have had. I could not stomach to be a party to such a disgrace, which I am certain was billed to Home City Housing and at least two turkeys that should have good to needy families were used by us that had already eaten at the Springfield Rescue Mission or the Loaves and Fishes soup kitchen, that is why they had it at 7PM, I think. So people could be greedy and pig out with two meals. Then the next day they would be over to eat across the street at Commerce High School for another Thanksgiving meal. How greedy and priggishly can you get??? I enjoyed reading a book and helping guard some back hallways at the Thanksgiving Holiday Meal on Thursday. Then we helped pack up some stuff and then I went back to bed. They were going to have a meal for us at the lodge, but I just could not stand it as my legs were giving out. The next day we got there at 7:30AM and spent a few hours cleaning up and bring food down to the folks at the Soup Kitchen to eat. Pigs, just the bunch of them, greedy pigs. I do not think most of them have a lack of a place to live that is clean and safe or a lack of funds due to their government checks. Obama has spent so much that has NOT inspired our economy that we heard on the Meet-The-Press program that the government intends on instituting death panels to kill off many of the elderly (hence cutting the social security outflow) and adding a value-added tax to the youth to make up for what President Obama has spent. I am not convinced that Kinsian economics is of as much value today as it was when tried as a test in the early 1900's. I was in bed all day Saturday as I was the last half of friday. No "Black Friday" or "Cyber Monday" for me, somehow money had gone from my accounts and I can't hardly buy a color ink cartridge for the computer printer.
I think the folding bicycle I got was an expensive bicycle but I have ruined any value it had by scratching it so when I tried to get off of the train tracks. If you click on this link it will tell you a bit about this happening.
Please continue to pray. My back and especially my neck muscles often hurt, but the pain in the hands is decreasing. But after the accident my arms hurt and my neck again. The professionals still say I need hearing aids in both ears. I am happy with the way the 2nd opinion Doctor is proceeding, cautiously and by getting lots of empirical information before a decision is made .I am under MassHealth paying for my MediCare so I have experienced first hand what "ObamaCare" would be like. As I said, it hurts, but then relieving the pain is not a priority when you are not an important person. I was happy NOFA thought they could use me. I can not seem to even volunteer, no one seems to want to use me .
God is healing that spine and I might not need another operation.
I will take buses and hitch hike if need be to get to the family home and start throwing out things out. But in reality, I might not be able to do any of that this fall.
I often feel I have not made the right decisions most of the time. I just does not feel good to think you are a called a worthless nobody by many people and the inference is that can not contribute much at all to life and the "society" is taking care of your minimal needs until you finally hurry up and die. That review of my life is so depressing. It seems that every time I have had an opportunity to make a decision, I have made the wrong one. People seem to say I make the wrong decisions BUT if I do follow their advice, and it turns out wrong, I am still blamed for doing so anyway. When I came back from Grand Lodge I was told that regardless of what some people may think, the Grand Lodge of Massachusetts, I.O.O.F., sees a value in me and I should focus upon that positive expectation. I just do now know what to do. I will be away from Saturday anyway through maybe Tuesday of next week. I am hoping to get my stuff out of Alice's home which she is trying to sell. I am despairing as I don't think I can do that. I seem to be so strangely ill.
My lodge (Springfield # 235, I.O.O.F.) has asked me to be Secretary for another year. So I know what I am doing for the 1st and 3rd Mondays this year.
I think one needs to rely on GOD and test the advice you are given and then go forwards;"full speed ahead"! I would like to attend Grange, but can't get there.
I think back on the Cathedral of the Pines I went with Ray Laborde and his wife Pauline to and the "Steak Roast" I went to at Amherst Lodge at one of their members large back yard in the country. I do like the Independent Order of Odd Fellows and the good works of beneficence that they do..
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The info. below is still sort of ok.
I have made a tri-fold resume like a brochure, my doctor said no work for at lest the next 3-6 months, ouch. It was last year, October 18th, when many donated to the Western Massachusetts Arthritis Foundation Walk. My back hurts, my neck hurts, I just plain hurt. I hope people will donate also again this coming fall.
Soon I am helping in the Relay for Life of the American Cancer Society. We had meetings on it this week on the PTK induction ceremony next week but I did not go.
What follows are the new information about my injuries and the progress from my NeuroSurgeon! I am in great pain and have difficulty doing many things.
I said last before that I would probably take them down from here. Now I will keep them up a little longer so you can see what I am having difficulty in healing from.
Click on the images above to go to links to more information
I was released of the braces on the same day as my accident, but 4 months later! BUT THE ALMOST CONSTANT PAIN IS CHANGING SOME.
And they do not know why the pain came, but was glad it seemed to be going away little by little!!! Now it is back worse than ever. I am scared.
The new medicines are helping the pain in the left had some, but moving it and exercising it seems to be the best thing. I thank God for my current Primary Care Doctor and for the "Second Opinion Surgeon" that said I could ride a bicycle and be more active if I was careful.. But after the July accident I have not done so. I hurt a lot in my shoulders arms.
Thank GOD for any and all improvements. Especially I thank God I can walk and do some things. I am told that because of the vertebra injured, medically, they did not even expect me to walk.
I pray this fall and the coming winter are full of blessings for you and yours.
The telephone number in Springfield is (413) 732-7077 or you can write to me there at 32 Byers Street, Apartment # 101, Springfield, MA 01105-1221.
It looks like I will be there throughout the winter this year.
I feel so much worse in many ways than I did when I was in the Rehab. Hospital.
Often have to rest up all day in order to go to a meeting at night for 2 hours and then I am so tired I am glad to get to bed.
But sleep does not come with the Narcolepsy, so I am up and then back to bed all night long.
I feel so rotten and worthless because I came to Springfield trying to get work and could not do so
and now I have to spend over 20 times the cost of repairs to tear down the family home.
I feel so rotten and worthless and it is no wonder no gal wants to even
be an escort with me to a free meal. Thanks for your prayers.
I feel I have let down God and humanity.
It is no fun feeling that you are