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May 23 to May 29, 2010
Sunday I sang in the choir. I thought of all the work to be done at the home in New Marlborough. Final exams were a failure and I did not visit or write a card to our past Grand Master of the Grand Lodge of Massachusetts, I.O.O.F., Michael Beaulieu (2004), and I feel bad about not visiting him when he was near by me.
Please continue to pray. My back and especially my neck muscles hurt. The professionals still say I need hearing aids in both ears. Maybe the thing to do in stead is to create a monastic like place that hs skilled nursing care available for people to live out the rest of thier lives here. I am happy with the way the 2nd opinion Doctor is proceeding, cautiously and by getting lots of empirical information before a decsion is mage. The pain in my arms, often feels like the muscles are atrophying; as if the muscles are being torn away from my bones. I saw my primary chare physician and she had no suggestion as to what to do. She thought maybe the Senior Care Option special insurance might help me with massage therapy but the regular insurance will not pay. I am undr MassHealth so I have experienced first hand what "ObamaCare" would be like. As I said, it hurts, but then releaving the pain is not a priority when you are not an important person.
I relied on a person instead of public transportation for a ride up to Amherst for a part I was to do at lodge. He backed out and I could not get down to the bus station in time. By the time I got up there all I could do is catch a ride back. I walked a lot. I hurt. I am so mad at myself for depending on others that have not proved to be "reliable" in the past. This week I must be at another lodge function and can not be at the Birthday party. So I need to get the ice cream for that, then go to the Relay for Life meeting and help hand out t shirts and then go to the lodge event. I seems to be so behind.
I was reminded I must be in the Berkshires this weekend to put out flowers, if we can find them, for Memorial Day at the graves. I will try and get up there somehow. Last week I was at the Relay for Life Captain's meeting and our group from STCC was present. I stayed a bit away but said I would go to meetings at the college if they told me when they would be. So far I have not had a notice of meetings. So I guess I am not needed at all.
I have told so many times how I enjoy singing in the choir but God has used that to remind me of how little I have been doing on what he told me to do. The work is before me and I really should do it. I seem to be running into the opposite direction. I often feel I have not made the right decisons most of the time. I just does not feel good to think you are a worthless nobody that can not contribute much at all to life and the "society" is taking care of your minimal needs until you finally hurry up and die. That review of my life is so depressing. It seems that every time I have had an opportunity to make a decision, I have made the wrong one. People seem to say I make the wrong decsions BUT if I do follow thier advice, and it turns out wrong, I am still blamed for doing so anyway. I have things to do Wednesday and Thursday and maybe even Friday. I just do now know what to do. I will be away from Saturday anyway through maybe Tuesday of next week. So I am writing this as I do not expect to be here to do so this weekend. Thansk for praying for me as your read these comments.
I think one needs to rely on GOD and test the advice you are givena nd then go forwards; "#@%& the torpedos, full speed ahead"!
charlie, nektarios ippotis
The info. below is still sort of ok.
I have made a tri-fold resume like a brochure, my doctor said no work for at lest the next 3-6 months, ouch. It was last year, October 18th, when many donated to the Western Massachusetts Arthritis Foundation Walk. My back hurts, my neck hurts, I just plain hurt. I hope people will donate also again this coming fall.
Soon I am helping in the Relay for Life of the American Cancer Society. We had meetings on it this week on the PTK induction ceremony next week but I did not go.
What follows are the new information about my injuries and the progress from my NeuroSurgeon! I am in great pain and have difficulty doing many things.
I said last before that I would probably take them down from here. Now I will keep them up a little longer so you can see what I am having difficulty in healing from.
Click on the images above to go to links to more information
I was released of the braces on the same day as my accident, but 4 months later! BUT NOW I HAVE LOTS OF PAIN. And they do not know why !!!
But the new medicines are helping the pain in the left had some. I thank God for my current Doctor.