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May 9 to May 15, 2010
Sunday I sang in the choir. I thought of the desire for a house of my own in Springfield . I also keep thinking of all the work to be done at the home in New Marlborough. Next week is final exams and I just know I cannot get the work done in the Revit class. I wanted to visit our past Grand Master of the Grand Lodge of Massachusetts, I.O.O.F., Michael Beaulieu (2004), but when I tried to help our Grand Instructor some on computer work last week he told me Mike had gone home. I can't even visit someone when they are sick and right near by me. Last Saturday I went up to vist withthe folks at Holy Trinit Greek Orthodox church and put together a Tutorial in woking with KompoZer to update their website and upload it with FileZilla. I was going to upload it here, but I dont think I have room, it is over a megabyte in size. Ask if you want a copy with the personal information for Holy Trinity taken out. There are lots of fine tutorials fo using KompoZer and FileZilla on the internet. Just do a search for them with the words free tutorial added to the KompoZer or FileZilla name. These are free opensource programs.
Please continue to pray, as am still very concerned and feel weakened. My back and especially my neck muscles hurt. The professionals still say I need hearing aids in both ears. Maybe the thing to do in stead is enter a monestary at Mt. Athos. Or maybe create a monastic like place that hs skilled nursing care available for people to live out the rest of thier lives here.
The pain in my arms, often feels like the muscles are atrophying; as if I were "dying" inside. sometimes is is really painful, as if the muscles are being torn away from my bones. I could not get to class Tuesday once again having difficulty getting up. So I know it is probably more nerves. I saw my neurologist and last week and he agreed that I was loosing my muscle tone. No suggestion as to what to do. As I said, it hurts.
I got to get the information from the Baystate Hospital System and then went Thursday to see the Dr. at the Mercy Hospital System for a second opinion about cutting open the back of my neck and throwing away the backs of about 6 vertebrae. This Doctor took ex Rays in addition to the ones I brought on disk and the written reports and called me back Friday. He said these range of motion x-rays show that the protusions into my spinal column are not causing a great deal of difficulty with me right now, so he wants to wait until July and I will come back and he will see if he thinks surgery needs to be done then. If he did it, he would lock the vertebrae open and not cut the backs off. Somehow that seems to be a little better to me, but I really want no surgery at all on my neck. Please pray that God does a miricale and whatever needs to get "fixed" is done so by God and so surgery needs to happen.
I have told so many times how i enjoy singing in the choir but God has used that to remind me of how little I have been doing on what he told me to do. The work is before me and I really should do it. I seem to be running into the opposite direction. I now wonder if I can do that work any more. I am really settled in here and yet I feel so uncomfortable in my living situation. It feels so terribly wrong. It is no diffrent than living in one of those mansions I visited, everything is taken care of for me, and yet I am so much at a loss. I am not doing what I think I should be doing. And I am so afraid that if I forge out and do what I think God wants me to do I will get "big headed" as my father used to put it. I was never deemed good enough to have a wife and family, not be successful in art or in preaching or pastoring, nor anything else I have tried a hand at. I just does not feel good to think you are a worthless nobody that can not contribute much at all to life and the "society" is taking care of your minimal needs until you finally hurry up and die.
That review of my life is so depressing. It seems that every time I have had an opportunity to make a decision, I have made the wrong one.
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The info. below is still sort of ok.
I have made a tri-fold resume like a brochure, my doctor said no work for at lest the next 3-6 months, ouch. It was last year, October 18th, when many donated to the Western Massachusetts Arthritis Foundation Walk. My back hurts, my neck hurts, I just plain hurt. I hope people will donate also again this coming fall.
Soon I am helping in the Relay for Life of the American Cancer Society. We had meetings on it this week on the PTK induction ceremony next week but I did not go.
What follows are the new information about my injuries and the progress from my NeuroSurgeon! I am in great pain and have difficulty doing many things.
I said last before that I would probably take them down from here. Now I will keep them up a little longer so you can see what I am having difficulty in healing from.
Click on the images above to go to links to more information
I was released of the braces on the same day as my accident, but 4 months later! BUT NOW I HAVE LOTS OF PAIN. And they do not know why !!!
But the new medicines are helping the pain in the left had some. I thank God for my current Doctor.